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喜歡一個人是犯賤的開始

如果感情没那么复杂就好了
我告诉自己不能喜欢上你
不能就这样不小心把心给你
我怕
我真的会怕
姐姐说至少要认识半年
不可以快
会受伤和伤心

可是
我好像在偷偷把它送给你了
怎么办?

我不想收回来

给梓恩的

今天和梓恩聊天了。真的很久没和她联络了!有想过找她吗?当然有可是我没找。我知道如果我把最近发生的告诉她我会哭然后她会担心,我也知道她过得不好,知道她很笨,不会照顾自己,只会把自己弄伤-身心。
狠狠的克制了自己,尽量让自己忙碌:不能说完全充实但真的挺忙碌的,朋友都说我 anti-social了,第一次听到真的还有点伤心:( 久了也习惯了。

我有很多话想和你说,心里话。
我记得我曾经叫你放弃辩论因为你受伤了,现在想起来,我其实不应该说这,辩论是你 ,你是辩论。 可是我就是不喜欢你不珍惜自己的身体,把自己给搞砸了! 你看你进过医院多少次?

每次看到你进医院的消息我就想骂你抱你,告诉你你真的很不会照顾自己!

认识你也快5年了吧? 嗯,过得好快哦! 真的好快!
5年不长不短,5年可以让一段感情消失,5年可以让一个人长大成熟,5年你我都变了!
下一个5年会怎样?恋爱?结婚?有小孩?有事业? 或者这些是再下一个5年才有呢? 不管怎样,你的下一个5年,我希望你开心就好!不要再伤心失望了!

还记得两条平行线吗?不可能遇上的最后也碰面:D 谁会想到两个人在不同的时差下竟然能认识呢?

新的一年, 我希望你开心。

 

Procrastination

I am freaking out about the exams!!!!
I’m really really am scared … I’ve done not enough study… Again and again ehy did I procrastinated ?? Omg I’m actually really worried…. Why didn’t I study before??

Even god can’t help me now 😦

Note to self: please please please don’t leave all the work until the last minute!!! Please I beg you future me!

The … Project

Best idea comes in shower! 

True that!!

I think it is because shower is the only time whem i am on my own and i can think with my clear mind.

So as i was showering away…….. with shower gel that smells really good and with shower pearls in them (i think they are called shower pearls?) ….. THE MOMENT which Newton had when an apple fell from the tree, yup i had the same moment.

I though what if i make videos showing my life here for my parents? and i will give myself about 2 months to do it, and show it to them around chinese new year time 🙂

Videos idea could be from my daily routine to friends say hi videos, i think it’ll be really nice since i haven’t done anything like this before and my parents don’t know what my life is like here as well (irresponsible child >.< )

And i will need a name for it…

Exams exams and more exams.

Exams exams and exams…. Noooo my life is not just about exams now hehehe

Yesterday, I met up wit Jin for the second time.. Well it wasn’t arranged purposely because he had to come into ucd for his exam, yes exam as well 😦 and I met up with him after his exam. It was a nice hour, just us 🙂 ok nothing big happened! I just showed him around Ucd and the main thing was we arranged when we are going to meet next!

Well he offered to cook Korean dinner, sorta… His friend was going to cook dinner this weekend but she,s busy so Jin offered to cook himself if I don’t mind. Duh! Of coure I don’t mind!!!! It’s nice to have someone cooks dinner for me, after all these time of cooking dinner mostly by myself. And it’s even better if it is just for me.

Who doesn’t want this? I’m not saying this just because a guy offered to cook me dinner but because I really am tired after all these years.
Without mummy and daddy by my side, I can’t do whatever I want. I had to act mature and grown up even though I was only 13. It was tough and tiring. Sometimes I just wish I can lean my head on someone else’s shoulder.

I thought I found one, turned out he was just a douche.

Life’s exciting I guess

When Winter Comes, Spring Is Not Far Behind!

When Winter Comes, Spring Is Not Far Behind!

Winter sun can be very bright, brighter than summer 🙂
(oh wait, Ireland doesn’t have summer)

Today, i woke up. Bright is the word to describe my room. It is cold and shivering in my room but the sun makes me smile as always. In chinese, there is a phrase : 冬天到了,春天还会远吗? It means when winter comes, spring is not far behind. The sun in the winter warms people’s heart and give hope to everyone. It is like an encouragement, a brightness in the dark gloomy winter.
Since it was all gloomy yesterday (and the day before yesterday) this big shinning egg yolk can really bring the spirit to people, well at least to me.

Every time when the sun shines brightly in the winter, i always imagine there is a bird chirping beside my window. I like the sound of birds chirping away as if he is waking me up. I know it is hard to find a bird in winter (they get cold too) but in the morning in Malaysia, the sound of birds in the morning excited me, and annoyed me sometimes because i was trying to sleep.

千山鸟飞绝,万径人踪灭。孤舟蓑笠翁,独钓寒江雪
柳宗元《江雪》
I remember when i was a kid i used to go to poetry class and learned the 300 Tang Poems. My mum would put the audio of the poems in the house. I love them. They are my favourite poems – simple, short and easy to remember. Yet the words of these poems are very powerful. A lot of them are still in my head today and i still get the feeling of what i got when i first learned the poems now.
李白 is my favourite poet out of all. His words are so lonely and to be honest, if i can travel back into time, i want to go to the Tang Dynasty to give him a hug, tell him it’s ok to be lonely.

Why would someone decided to have a row right beside the busiest road in town?

Apart from successfully drawn a wing to my eye, a sad thing happened today.

I didn’t want to write this on my last post which was happy and bubbly 😛 So here it is :

What happened?

Basically, a man killed today in a bus collision in town. At first, i thought it must be the guy’s fault since people nowadays just pop out of no where on the roads…PEOPLE, IT IS DANGEROUS!

But, this was not the case. The accident can actually be avoided! According to witnesses, the dead man was having a row with 2 other guys before he was pushed to the road and fell under a bus. Bus 145,…man i could have been there if i was in town….it’s the bus i usually take…Thank god i wasn’t or else…diversion diversion diversion as usual ( that’s another story ).

What i actually don’t understand is why would these people, including the dead having a row beside the road??? Did they actually know each other or was it just random people who happened to be on the street fighting over something silly? Like one guy pushed another guy by accident and the other guy got angry? This is actually really serious, why would they thought that having a row beside the road was safe? What if it was another innocent pedestrian who walk by them was pushed out to the road ?

Of course, one can argue that he or she wouldn’t take these into account when he or she was angry…. Sadly to say, this is the human nature 😦 people get angry sometimes and they can’t think logically.

I do feel sorry for the man and his family but also the people who happened to see such accident happened. It’s Christmas time, people are doing Christmas shopping, the victim’s family could be at home waiting for him to come back for dinner, instead it was a sad news arrived at their door. The bus driver too, it’s nearly time to get off work in this cold winter day and BOOM, accident happened. Thankfully the people on the bus were ok. I must say, bus 145, one of the busiest bus during rush hours, students from my college usually get that bus to town… things could be worst then what it was …

Back to my question again, why would someone decided to have a row right beside the busiest road in town?

RIP